Change of Heart.

I'm not sure how well you know me, or what you've heard me say, but at least for the last year and a half...I've hated my hometown. I wanted to get out of there and then once I did, I didn't want to come back. Obviously, there were some people that were exempt from my feelings of disgust for Modesto, but overall I was completely over it.


This semester, knowing I'll be coming home for a four month summer, I decided it's not okay for me to dislike where I came from and I started praying for a change of heart or something.


I am here to tell you that God has changed my heart.


I cannot explain to you accurately how much I miss everyone. I adore CBU and I love being here, but now there's just a longing in my heart to be where my 'family' is; my actual family, my church family, and my friends who are like family. It's ridiculous.


Philippians 1:3-11 -- I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart and, whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God's grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus. And this is my prayer: that your love may be abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God.


I just miss everyone and I love everyone. I miss CrossPoint Community Church. I miss going to Mr. T's, Yogurt Mill, Compadres on a Sunday afternoon, blasting gangster rap in the McDonald's drive thru....whatever it is we used to do together...I miss it.


And, rather than dreading this summer, I am actually really excited for it.


Thank you Jesus for changing my heart and giving me an excitement again.
:)

I miss you!!!