Fill Us Up;

God of justice, Savior to all

Came to rescue the weak and the poor

Came to serve and not be served

And Jesus, You have called us

Freely we've received now freely we will give

We must go, live to feed the hungry

Stand beside the broken, we must go

Stepping forward keep us from just singing

Move us into action, we must go

To act justly everyday

Loving mercy in every way

Walking humbly before You God

You have shown us what You require

Freely we've received now freely we will give

Fill us up and send us out

Fill us up and send us out

Fill us up and send us out, Lord

Acting justly, loving mercy- We must go, we must go

To the broken and the hurting- We must go, we must go

This is probably my favorite song because it calls us to more than just listening to the problems that are in the world, but to change them. To follow the example that Christ gave us and go.

I realized something about the line --fill us up and send us out--

I'm such an urgent, get-things-done-right-away type of person that it's taken me a little while to fully understand this...my time here at CBU is my time to be filled up and prepared to be sent out into the world. When we ask God to fill us up and send us out, that doesn't mean he is going to do that work in us overnight. It's going to take time and we just have to trust that he knows what he's doing.

I'm currently a Christian Behavioral Sciences major. My idea with what I'd like to do with that major has been quite vague. If asked, my response has been something like, "I'm not sure, but I know I'd like to work in ministry and, hopefully, become a missionary." I think that majoring in Christian Behavioral Sciences with a broad idea of working in ministry and missions work is a good plan. It's a pretty great plan, it's honorable, and it would be worth the time. But I don't think that's God's best for me.

I'm really intrigued by Psychology, Sociology, Anthropology, and Behavioral Sciences...but I also think that if I pursue more information about how people react to things and why they do what they do, I might just analyze every person I ever meet and not be able to stop. I might become more judgmental and I don't think that's a door I'd like to open. I don't want to be constantly telling people what's wrong with them...or telling myself what's wrong with them. I want to love people and care for them.

I'm sure anyone who knows me knows that I adore children. This shouldn't be surprising if you know who my father is. My entire childhood was spent playing school the moment I got home from school. I had popsicle sticks with every kid in my class' name on it, knew the seating chart by heart, and thought I would make the coolest teacher ever. I had the idea that I would be the next Mrs. Hoopiiaina or Mrs. Dickens; two of the greatest teachers I could have ever asked for. I thought that someday I'd be the second grade teacher with the classroom decorated like a jungle, putting on plays, and wearing toe socks. I was so sure of it.

So I guess I'm kinda re-evaluating. If you know me, you also know I decide things and then I do them right away. So I will probably change my major within the week...just being real here.

So, I guess this is more of a declaration than me telling you what I might do...because I am not really the type who waits on things. Not sure if that's bad or not, but if I feel strongly about something I trust my instincts.

I don't have to wait to have my own children to hang out with little kids...I just have to find a job that will let me do that. Whether that job is in the United States or the country of Belize...who knows. The doors are wide open for interpretation. I'm open to wherever, but I think Liberal Studies is calling.

Continue to walk with me on this crazy journey we call life.

Matthew 19:14 -- Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."